I'm back from Indiana (where I've been all the the last month)
Been sitting next to my grandfather's hospital bed for weeks, watching
him slowly fade away while trying to keep us smiling the whole while
He had terminal stage 4 cancer in his spine, which had spread to various spots in his body.
He also had COPD, which is a breathing disorder, and major heart problems.
We stayed with him for about 3 weeks until he realized he wasn't getting
any better, (not that the hospital didn't try, he was just too far gone) so
he decided he wanted to go home "to be comfortable," as the nurses put
it.
He was moved home to a new bed, and he was so happy to be there.
So we stayed around him, and shared stories and memories with him,
laughed and fought away tears.
As the night grew on, his condition worsened, as we knew it would. He
began to have real difficulty breathing, and the lack of oxygen caused
him to be confused and disoriented. There were brief moments where
he would snap back, but the pain must have been excruciating, all of the
medicine he was sent home with just seemed to stop having a response.
He fell asleep, and a few hours later, he passed. Less than 12 hours after
leaving the hospital, he died. This was about a week ago. We had the funeral,
I got to see him one last time. It was comforting, and sad that he looked
healthier in the coffin than he did in his bed.
I miss him very much, not much more to say on that
Anyway, I'm back home, although I don't really know how "here" I'll be
for a while yet; It's been a month 800 miles from my home, and there
are yet more things that bare further importance than sprites and such
Thanks to whomever the maker of my secret santa gift was, I'm sorry
that I couldn't participate. You don't know who you are perhaps, but
I'll make something for you in addition to whoever I get for the next
gift event, whenever that might be
In short: Shit December, Shit 2013. Here's hoping this year
is better than the last.
Been sitting next to my grandfather's hospital bed for weeks, watching
him slowly fade away while trying to keep us smiling the whole while
He had terminal stage 4 cancer in his spine, which had spread to various spots in his body.
He also had COPD, which is a breathing disorder, and major heart problems.
We stayed with him for about 3 weeks until he realized he wasn't getting
any better, (not that the hospital didn't try, he was just too far gone) so
he decided he wanted to go home "to be comfortable," as the nurses put
it.
He was moved home to a new bed, and he was so happy to be there.
So we stayed around him, and shared stories and memories with him,
laughed and fought away tears.
As the night grew on, his condition worsened, as we knew it would. He
began to have real difficulty breathing, and the lack of oxygen caused
him to be confused and disoriented. There were brief moments where
he would snap back, but the pain must have been excruciating, all of the
medicine he was sent home with just seemed to stop having a response.
He fell asleep, and a few hours later, he passed. Less than 12 hours after
leaving the hospital, he died. This was about a week ago. We had the funeral,
I got to see him one last time. It was comforting, and sad that he looked
healthier in the coffin than he did in his bed.
I miss him very much, not much more to say on that
Anyway, I'm back home, although I don't really know how "here" I'll be
for a while yet; It's been a month 800 miles from my home, and there
are yet more things that bare further importance than sprites and such
Thanks to whomever the maker of my secret santa gift was, I'm sorry
that I couldn't participate. You don't know who you are perhaps, but
I'll make something for you in addition to whoever I get for the next
gift event, whenever that might be
In short: Shit December, Shit 2013. Here's hoping this year
is better than the last.